Art is a jealous mistress, and, if a man have a genius for painting, poetry, music, architecture, or philosophy, he makes a bad husband, and an ill provider. (Waldo Emerson)

Monday, November 22, 2010

Visitors!

Well I found out last night that I will be having company over for Thanksgiving. I am pretty excited. I do not get many visitors. I started to clean the carpets today. Oh wow. They feel so much better. I think its been like six months since I last cleaned them.


While I was cleaning I started to think about some stuff. Of course "art" was on that list of thoughts. There is a classic question that is always asked.. "why are you an artist"    Sometimes (to be honest) the answers seem so over dramatic to me and I think its all rehearsed. Its almost like the weirder your answer the better.  I do not focus on my "pain" nor anything like that. I just pick out things that I like to see and that are attractive to me and I do what I can to paint it.  In fact I do not want to do anything when I am feeling down or uncomfortable. When I am in that state I am too busy thinking of ways to get out of it and art work is always the least fun.  


So anyway...   I am afraid I am getting close to getting off track...So I think there are .. um. three reasons why I am an artist...


1. The struggle and self gratification.
2. I love art. It makes me cry when I see a painting that is so pretty and so emotional. Especially when I know the story behind the art work. If I had tons of money I would be a very important art collector.      
3. I want to make you cry and make you a lover of art.


Now I hope those are not over dramatic! They may be and I am just a jerk for calling others that. However I think that is the truth.  That was my intention when I first started out and I seem to have forgotten because I got caught up in all the politics of everything. Did I mention how much I do not like politics? So with this.. The next time I pick up an art tool - I can relax.. because I remember why I got on this ride.


Till Next Time....

       

Im Hungry

Its time for the kids to get on the bus again!  yeah. I will miss them but its good for them to go to school and good for me.

Last night one of my kittens fell from the landing down into the entry way. Scared me very badly. She is okay. She is a little bitchy this morning so she is probably sore. But I know she will be alright. She is already running around and chasing after her sister.

Today I should be going to the gym but I think I am going to stay home and clean the house a bit. I have missed my period so I think its from going to the gym. My body needs a rest. :) Its okay. I have been a good girl the last couple of days. :)

I did not do any drawing last night. My oldest daughter ended up with a UTI and we were dealing with that and also I started making Christmas gifts for all the grandma's in my life.  Maybe - if I can get the house work done I can start on some art work. I usually can not do much drawing or painting unless the house is clean. I know it probably makes no sense. I can sit and crochet while the house is TORE UP but not draw or paint. :) Okay.. I am going now. Gotta take a shower to start off my day!  

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Its Been Too Long

Last night I decided that I would draw. No graphs no tools. Just me and my pencil. Its been too long. I have not given drawing a second thought in over 4 months! I sat at the paper for an hour last night trying to figure out what I wanted to do. I started to get frustrated and then forgot I had "some" patients and ended up walking away. I need to relax. I need to think more about it. Keep it at the top of my thought list.

Its really pretty this morning. Its about 8:30. The sky looks like what I call a "snow sky". The sun is hiding and it looks very cold outside. I know I have to go to the store but I do not want to! I really can not stand it that wal mart has such a hold on me. Every single day sometimes! Always wal mart!  If I do not go then I will carry that weight around on my shoulders all day that I should go and its not that big of a deal. I just do not want to go and be around the other one million victims of wal mart. Its chaos in that store. I am always in such a hurry to get out that I end up forgetting something. Is it just me?

I do love the mornings however (as I look out my huge window and take a deep breath).  I need to go and make the sprouts some breakfast and I will make my hunny some coffee. I know he will appreciate it. While I am at it... I will make myself some tea! Sounds like a plan!

Till Later..............

Saturday, November 20, 2010

We are not put on this earth to see through one another, but to see one another through.~Unknown Source    


I got this quote off of twitter. You have no idea how important this one is to me. I try to tell my kids this EVERY day. I believe if I say it enough times... they will eventually hear me. 


This weekend has been kinda long. I never want to complain nor sound negative. So I will not say it has been a "bad" weekend so far. Just kinda long.  I think that after the kids go to bed I am going to set myself up with some earphones.. and a stick of charcoal and paper. I have been thinking that I have allowed money to get in the way of my "creative" side.  All I can think about is "how am I going to make money". The most ridiculous part about it is I am choosing to do it in a way that makes me unhappy.  Lets take Avon as an example... When I make a sell (and that is not very often) I do not feel as if I have accomplished anything. When I make a scarf and think of someone actually buying one (luckily they never do) I immediately worry about me having to make another one to sell. When I paint or draw something that I really love, I feel as if I have accomplished something and grown as an artist. Then I hang it on the wall and I see it constantly and feel that accomplishment all over again.      


I think I have outgrown Facebook



Friday, November 19, 2010


















This is my work that I have hanging in one of the local tea shops here where I live. It doesn't look too bad. :) 
My little kitties hanging out on the window seal looking at the birds that land on the bushes outside. Their mouths were doing that super weird thing they do when they want to eat something! I am pretty sure its one of the weirdest things I have ever seen an animal do. 


Finally! They look at me!

Sweaty and Gross

I went to the gym this morning and did my daily walk. Now I am going to keep this real so for all of you who think that I am precious and perfect, and I know there are a LOT of you out there, I stink right now. I wear this belly belt thing that is supposed to help cut down on your water retention spots (muffin top) and it does make me sweat. All the way down my back end to be honest with you! Its very ugly and unbecoming but that is the price I pay for now. Going to get one of those ones that look like shorts. :) I found one for twenty bucks. Yeah me.   Anyways... After I get all cleaned up I am going to start working on a painting. I have one .. okay two ..   ALRIGHT three...   that I need to finish but I just really want to start a new one. I want to paint an Angel. We will see how it works out. I will post my updates...                       my thoughts and my struggles through it all.. And more my word .. there will be some of all of those. Never fails. :)

Getting Excited Now!

I am starting to get a little excited because of this blog. Also I found this new site for posting my art work. I like it a lot. Fine Art America. I do need to take better photos of my work so that I can get prints sold. My photos are blurry and low quality. Unfortunately they are all hanging in a tea shop on the other side of town. Ew Ew and and and.. I am going to set up my own domain name and make myself a gallery here on the net. :)  I am excited. Then maybe one day I will get brave and venture out and find some galleries or something. But for now.. I need to paint more. I need to make more time for all of this...... sigh.. yes.. must make more time.   By the way my class yesterday! Horrible. Moms if you come with your children and you know they are bad... please do not stay! They are worse when you are there.. ;)

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Its Time For Sleep

Alright.. I know that I have been awake far too long today because I am reading blog posts of my friends and they are making me cry. I am sure I have been cursed. Either I am extremely happy or extremely sad. I am extremely patient or I am throwing things against the wall. There really is no in between with me. And there are times when I snap from one to the other without any warning. hahaha.. Mania! :) Hey, I am what I am and thats all that I am! Goodnight!

Already crazy after one day!

Its been one day since I started working on this blog. Actually.. not even that long yet and its already making me crazy. There is the perfect background out there for me. I just have not found it yet. .But I will! I will not give up.

Some sort of editor?

I am looking for a photo editor. I usually use paint shop pro 5.. i know its old..  but I like it. Anyways I can not seem to find it online anymore. It was a free download. Hm. Well if I can not find it is there anyone that can recommend one for me? I need something that is free.. Well I WANT something that is free anyway! ha ha :) Thanks! 

My first post!

Alright so this is my first post. I will try to work on this every day! I have tons of things to talk about and say! I'm excited that I have finally sat down and made a blog. I hope it is user friendly and you all enjoy coming here to visit me. Please do not hesitate to follow me so I can find your blog in return. Also please comment on anything you feel necessary!  See you again soon!